ffs

Was I a really bad person in a former life? Or do I just have bad karma lol?

It turns out Noah's been sick and whingey the last 4 or 5 days cos the little pest has got the damn freaking MEASLES!

What the? Spots started appearing yesterday and then this morning he was covered. Grrr.

I think he's a drama queen lol - one thing after another. He's only just 1 and he's already had stitches, antibiotics, middle of the night ambulance visit, viruses... and now the measles! Must be in the genes lol. *points to WK*

So the whole "relaxing" day thing is off. Sigh. At home looking after whingey poo bum instead... and yes I mean Noah lol. The other whingey poo bum can look after himself for a change. :p

i think i'm too tired to blog

... so I'm gonna make this short and sweet.

Two blogworthy points:

1. today sucked. stressful. hospital visit... saw the physician who looks after me and my health as opposed to the obstetrician who's in charge of the fetus. not pleasant - what with the serious discussion and all lol. long story involving the fact that I think I'm allergic to pregnancy lol. or maybe I'm just allergic to children, hehe. *fingers crossed for little Blobby* yes I realise we need to plan for all types of outcomes, yes I realise this is a high risk pregnancy, and yes I realise the "no more babies" thing lol. but seriously, we're 16 weeks already and things aren't going that badly! Blob's still here and I'm still breathing ffs!

... and cos today was so sucky...

2. we're gonna do the whole fun newlyweds "pretend we're on a honeymoon" thing tomorrow and forget about all the stress of uni and money and blob and, well, everything. go out for breakfast... go for a walk on the beach... hopefully catch a daytime movie... spend money we dont have lol. yay. Noah better damn well behave or it'll be all grrr'y. :P

See? I'm too tired to even use capital letters or punctuation lol.

Meh, whatever.

*hyperventilates* I saw the R rating, and for a sec I thought "oh fk they're gonna delete me like msn did to my first blog"... but, phew...

LOL. Stay away kiddies!

Hmm... I need to make this blog worse. An R rating is not bad enough when you compare it to Moth's NC-17 (no one under 17 allowed) rating for his anti-christian whinging "yes we were sheep, but thank the lord we got out... oops, not the lord... thank someone else instead... oh gosh I don't know who to thank now, what do I do?" blog.

So I guess I'll have to add more swear words.
Here goes... just the basics...

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
shit shit shit shit shit shit
ass ass ass ass ass ass
bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch
cunt cunt cunt cunt cunt cunt
hell hell hell hell hell hell
bastard bastard bastard bastard
piss piss piss piss piss piss
dick dick dick dick dick dick
tit tit tit tit tit tit

Arrgh what have I missed?

*roars*

Ok ok... all that Craigsy gaybo gbf astrological crap last weekend (long story lol) got me thinking about what it means to be a Leo. Cos, yeah, I'm not into astrology but its scary just how stereotypically Leo I am.

This info comes from a variety of net sources - I've lost track lol.

Positive traits: Loyal and honest, expansive, generous and caring, house proud, lively, flamboyant, self sacrificing, responsible, takes others at face value, dignified and friendly.
Negative traits: Too much pride, sulky, smug and boastful, likes to keep up appearances, obstinate, arrogant, willful and cold hearted when hurt or upset.

Greatest Strength: Your playful and loving nature
Possible Weakness: Pride/ego

Hmm, yes, so far thats basically all true. Arrogant, obstinate, willful, cold hearted - man I sound nasty lol.

Interesting...
From, I dunno, some website
Leo's are born fortunate (wtf? have you not seen my family?).
Charismatic and positive-thinking they attract not only an abundance of friends and opportunities, but manage to survive life's stormy times with style and good humour (no comment lol).
Once a Lion is committed to a relationship, they are totally devoted and faithful. Should their heart or trust be broken they never forgive or forget (yep, I call it "holding a grudge" :P).
When a relationship breaks down they can disappear into the sunset without a backward look. (omg... its like they're talking about my first marriage lol)
Leos can cut ties, and leave others heartbroken, but usually there is a good reason why they have broken a tryst. For a Leo, when a relationship is over, really over, it is over for good.
(And this is where it gets really interesting ->)
There are three levels of soul-evolution of the Leos:
1. The highest is represented by the Sphinx; wise beyond their years and great teachers to others.
2. The second is the Lion, King of the Jungle, ruled by ego but always protective and sustaining of those they love.
3. The last is the Lion Cub, immature and undeveloped, frightened by anything new. These Leos cling to others (in the mode of the child not wanting to leave its mother's side).) They can't bear to be alone.
No matter what level they have attained, all Leos are trendsetters, leaders and adventurers. Their weakness is their pride. This is one sign where the saying "flattery will get you everything" applies, but be warned criticism will slam the relationship door right in your face (lol, too true!).

So I have an evolving soul huh? Hmm.
I guess I'm not a Sphynx cos I aint that wise lol. Plus "sphynx" refers to the waxing of the ass. So I wouldn't want to be that anyway - sheesh.
I guess I'm not a Lion Cub either cos I'm certainly not a frightened little mummy's boy... or girl... whatever.
So that leaves the Lion I guess. Ego... protective of loved ones... yep, yep. Sigh. How boring.
Give me something I don't know dammit!

So I'm a lion then. *roars quietly cos its still early*

I have no idea where Disso got this from, but...

This post-it is cute in a bad way lol, and it sorta matches my whole fat-pregnancy-depressed state from earlier in the week.

I, however, would never call myself beautiful, fine or interesting. I may have a Leo's ego but I'm much more realistic than that lol.

And I sure as *insert F word here* would never ever ever say that I am "someone of sound mind". LOL. Never!!

Still... I like this post-it. Meh, whatever.

so self aware, so full of shit

Bad me...

Phew. I know its bad but... I saw a woman who's ass was literally three times the width of her shoulders tonight. Maybe four times. She gave new meaning to the phrase "all ass". Not that I've heard that phrase before, but meh.

And apart from the fact that she had to walk sideways in between chairs in the restaurant... more bad me... she seemed happily married, two young kids and a normal-assed husband. Please someone stop me lol before I get struck down by lightning.

I'm really not trying to be nasty. I just... it makes me realise I'm not that bad after all lol.

I guess I'm just depressed and frustrated by this whole fat pregnancy thing. Or as WK calls it, the extra squidgy pregnancy bits (GRRRRRRRR). I know its stupid, I know weight doesn't matter blah blah... but fuck it. I am shallow. I'm not a fat person lol. I don't get the whole yuk fat thing. I feel as if I'm wearing a padded 5kg suit and the real me is underneath it lol. If only!

WK and I have made an agreement - cos he puts on weight with me during the pregnancy lol - to go nuts on the whole diet/exercise thing after Baby Blob gets born (what can I say, I crave things like kfc and he eats what I eat :P) . It stresses me to be so... eeky. Can't stand the mirror, can't even stand to look at my dragonfly tatt lol. Cos it looks all... wrong. My poor dragonfly lol. *cries*

My non-out of shape dragonfly on my non-preg body... sigh.
Took forever to find this photo lol.

Speaking of Blob...

I had an ultrasound the other day - but no, still don't know the gender yet. Little Blob was staring directly at the "camera", all sweet and still. Perfect shot of head/torso and all arms and legs.

And just as I thought "awww, maybe I'm not totally anti-maternal after all", for no reason at all, Blob threw this major tanty. Arms and legs flailing in time with each other. What the? Not another one lol. Tantrums and its still in utero? Eek.

Doesn't look like much of a blob anymore either lol. More of a demonic skeletal type of thing these days. But, meh, I like the name Blob.

Did someone mention tatts?

I think I need a new one lol. Gonna start planning it now, so that by the time Blob is out and about I'll be all set to go. Yay, a new tatt for christmas!

About time! Any suggestions? What and where? Something cool but still girly.

Oi... WK, Looloo, Disso (get something Guild Wars-y and Shane'd love it lol), Moth... someone needs to come get tatt'd with me at the end of the year. Get planning! No pikers!

Slavery...

Slavery should sooo be legal. I'm sitting here too lazy to wee, too lazy to get a drink, too lazy to go to bed, too lazy to watch a movie, too lazy to basically do anything cept sit here and stare at the monitor. I'm cold too.

I need someone to do my bidding for me. The kids are still too young for real slavery, and besides, they're all asleep dammit. Whats with that. When they're old enough I'm gonna give them maids/butlers uniforms for christmas (hehe).

I tried to fool 11 yr old Laura into getting me dessert tonight, but even that didn't work. She somehow managed to outsmart me. Sigh.

Yes, I need a slave. A real slave. I'd have to be a guy though, cos otherwise WK'd be forever ogling her. I can imagine it already lol. *daydreams about the perfect slave* Or should that be *nightdreams* since its night time?

Yes, I need a slave. Any takers? Pay's shite (nonexistent actually) but it beats a crap job.

if i was a dog chasing cars all day i think i'd be a mutt... anything but a poodle :p

"Chasing Cars"...

Maybe its me but I don't understand the chasing cars analogy.

Like, what the?
I like the melody of this song, I like this song.

Well, for a silly girly lovey song that is lol.
I'll try not to bastardise it with stupid sarcastic comments

too much - well, I'll try lol. :P
I need to point out, though, that as nice as lying with the person

you love and shutting the rest of the world out is...

there's still the issue of sex.

I can imagine lying in bed, with this song playing, fulfilling the

dream, and then on comes Tenacious D's Fuck Her Gently.

You get the point.
"awww this is nice, lying together, peaceful"
*music changes*
Need I say more? lol

We'll do it all

Everything

On our own

We don't need

Anything

Or anyone

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know

How to say

How I feel

Those three words

Are said too much

They're not enough

("Are" said too much... huh?)

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told

Before we get too old

Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time

Chasing cars

Around our heads

(see - whats that mean?)

I need your grace

To remind me

To find my own

*insert repeated verses here*

All that I am

All that I ever was

Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

(my fav verse, sigh)

I don't know where

Confused about how as well

Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Thank goodness this song is mainstream radio crap.

I wouldn't want to be classified as emo lol. Eek!